I have a passion for people and culture. I think it is this passion that really drives much of my existence. Perhaps it comes from my diverse conglomeration of friends I had growing up. Maybe it stems from the fact that my mother loved everybody -- (ack... maybe some part of her actually did rub off onto me).
My greatest passion (presently) is dancing. It is funny because if you ask anybody from my high school days about me and dancing they would probably just laugh in your face. I was not comfortable in my skin back then, and did not really understand the dynamics of movement and what it can do for you. One of my friends best stated it when he said, 'It gives you your body back." Not that we live in a world where nobody has control over thier body, but I think dancing opens up a window into a person's soul. It is a place where you cannot hide from your emotions; they are readily manifested wherever your body holds tension.
My dancing career started with ballroom and Latin dancing; the dances were very elegant and transforming. My first dance class was a Social Dance class (Dance 180 for all you BYU savvy folk). I took it because I heard that they were teaching swing steps, and I thought that might be fun to learn. I figured I'd just deal with having to learn Cha-Cha, Foxtrot, and Waltz, but I ended up becoming addicted to them instead. After attending several of the ballroom dance performances on campus, I knew I had to get involved. So, I signed up for more classes and started to learn more technique. I even found a competition partner and we started to take private lessons together. Before I knew it, I made the ballroom team, I was performing, and it was feeling great. Then I got kicked out of BYU.
But then I found Modern Dance at the University of Utah. That is where dancing really started to change me. I began to realize that dance is not just about mastering steps; rather, it is about finding control and balance within your body. It is about exploring what you feel inside and describing those emotions with movement. Lots of people worry about whether they 'get' a dance. They feel inadequate to see or understand what the choreographer was trying to say. But what is so great about dance is that it is out there for everybody to find their own personal meanings. There is nothing to 'get' per se. There are only things to feel. And everybody reacts with different feelings.
I think I also have a passion also for being real. I find it hard to be cold with people, especially those I care about. Sometimes it is difficult for me to understand how they could be that way with me. If there is anything from this website that I want you to have as a 'take home' message, it is to be real. Be real with yourself and those around you. It is not really a term that is easy to define. But mostly it is just respecting those around you, letting them know how you feel, and being completely honest with them.
So, what are my life aspirations? I think my greatest goal right now is to become a doctor. Which field? I have no idea. Anybody who tells you they do before they've completed rotations is just lying to you, so don't listen to them. I do enjoy genetics and cancer research, but I do not know how much I'd be able to stand being pinned up in a research lab all day. That is mostly why I left the computer field; I didn't want a little cubicle to be my second home. I need personal interaction in life. I guess that stems from my passion for people and getting to know more about them.
I would also like to be a father someday. Many people find the idea completely repulsive that a gay couple would choose to have a child. Well, I find it completely repulsive the way most children are raised in America (by their barefoot-and-pregnant, subservient mother and their work-aholic, dead-beat, domineering father.) As I am concerned, if a child has two loving parents in addition to positive male and female role models -- the child is probably better off than seventy-five percent of the children in America.
I guess here on my "passions" page I can also let you know what I look for in guys. Right now, I don't know how much I am in the market for dating (always in the market for friends), but you might find it interesting anyway.
I am looking for someone real. They have to be amazing, but not perfect. I want to know that when they tell me that they love me they really mean it.
I would like someone who has a positive relationship with his family. Even though we are gay and our families sometimes neglect us, it does not give us the right to neglect them. So many gay boys out there think that because their family treats them a certain way that it gives them a ticket to act rude, obnoxious, and immature."
I want someone who is interested in learning and interested in life. My ideal mate should have passions. The specifics of these passions aren't necessarily important, but they have to be there. I am always evolving, and I expect the same from my partner.
And, just to cleat things up right now, I would be lying if I said that looks didn't matter to me. They matter to everyone, and just because I might or might not be attracted to you does not change your value as a person. I do, however, place more emphasis on the more malleable characteristics in a person, such as personality and sense of humor. And it wouldn't hurt to find a great kisser as well.
I need to have someone who intrigues me. I am looking for someone who on the surface is wonderful, but also has depth. I like men who are capable of independent thoughts and do not have a problem developing new ways of thinking if their life dictates such.
I love the outdoors, and it seems like everyone else does as well. I scuba dive, I rock climb, I ski, I hike, I camp, and I'd do it every day if I could. :)
Also, I am very much out in the open about my sexuality. I mean, hell, I was willing to give up my chances for education at BYU because I wanted to hold my boyfriend's hand at the mall. If you want to date me, you must have similar ambitions. I am not going back into the closet.
I want someone who is responsible and someone I can depend on. Just because you are gay does not mean that you deserve any free handouts. I've worked very hard to get to where I am in life. Yes, it has been hard, but I am a better person for it and you should be as well.
I think that most of the boys that I date are about 25-28. This does not have so much with me being attracted to older guys (although I am at times) as much as it pertaining to the fact that boys that age generally know what they want out of life and how they are going to achieve it.
I know it is going to be somewhat difficult or next to impossible to find someone with all of these characteristics, but if you think you meet some (or most) of the criteria, feel free to drop me a line :) (Don't worry I don't bite... well, at least not unless you want me to).